A Mother Who Has Found Her Purpose and Freedom from Addiction
Before I started using drugs, I had a very unstable and dysfunctional childhood. My dad was addicted to meth and we were constantly getting evicted from our homes because they had no money for rent. My escape from all this as a child was sports, but eventually, I lost interest and started going out with friends more regularly. I went to college and graduated early, settling for a smaller degree than initially planned. I got married and life was okay. I was introduced to opiates, however, and everything started to go downhill fast.
I lost my job which led to me losing everything. I began getting arrested and had so much anger in pain in me that all I wanted to do was numb those feelings. This continued for the next 10 years until I found out I was pregnant. I swore to myself I would never touch a drug again, a promise I would break to myself and my brand-new baby girl when my daughter was a one-year-old. I started taking Xanax again, but this time I was taking 10 times more than I ever had. My sister called DCF (Florida Department of Children and Families) on me, but I somehow passed my U.A. (urinalysis test) and the charges were dropped.
Nothing changed, however. Fast forward a year and a half and I was arrested while in the company of my daughter. DCF took my rights away and put me on a no contact with my daughter. I was so broken and mad at myself for doing this to her. Again, I promised her and myself while I was in jail that I would never leave her again. I ended up getting her back and my case was closed.
I failed to realize I still had unhandled issues within myself. The guilt I felt was consuming me, I knew that I needed help and that I could not do it on my own. I have tried so many times and failed. I picked up the phone and started calling different treatment centers when I came across Narconon Suncoast. I decided I wanted to go to Narconon because I wanted to detox and handle my issues without medication. While I was scared and I knew it was not going to be easy, I knew I had to do it.
As soon as I got to Narconon I felt a sense of comfort. All the staff understood what I was going through and helped me in any way they could to make me feel comfortable. There were so many times that I wanted to leave early on, but the staff were able to talk me through it and keep me from giving up. They were always there for me at my weakest moments.
Towards the end of the Sauna part of the program, I began to feel myself changing. My biggest win was finding myself throughout the objectives, realizing the past is just that, in the past. I realized how to let go of the things that I was holding onto for so long. By the end of my program, I felt a self-confidence I have never felt before, self-discipline was something I had never had.
Narconon gives you the tools to live a happy, sober life. I am looking forward to living sober and happy with my family for the first time in a very long time. I am excited to be the mother that my daughter deserves. I am finally free and know who I am and my purpose once more.
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